time to update

I don't have time for anything. I eat, sleep, clean, talk to some of my other kids on the phone, haul kids around, pray and read Kari, Cindy and a couple of other peoples blogs. And I talk to Rick in Alaska twice a day. Not much else. I would like to keep up with this blog, it is a good way for me to look back and see what has been going on in some kind of vague overview. I just don't have time to do it. I try to read my email, delete the spam at least. I do well to get that done and read the headlines of Cori's end time events. I hope and pray for Jesus to come soon. I hate to think what might become of some of my kids out in the world without me to ride herd on them and put the fear in 'em to stay away from drinking and drugs and stupid people who would ruin their lives, drag them out of bed to church. I would hope that for most of them it is thoroughly ingrained in their brain, but I wonder sometimes if I let down my guard and they were allowed to do whatever and go where ever if what I have taught them would stay with them for a day. Teenagers don't have good sense at their best, I didn't, but with the histories that some of these have and the issues that they deal with it makes it much harder. So far, other than sneaking some filthy rap music in on the ipod, everybody has been pretty good this school year. Only one suspended for self defense fighting, one called on the carpet for not dressing out in PE for a month (lost his outfit), two having to drop out of school for hospitalization for suicidal ideation and not being able to face going back, the OTP man/boy got set back a month for covering up for his criminal groupmates but didn't do anything evil himself. Even Alina made it through kindergarten without running away or setting off the fire alarm. Summer vacation is coming. what will I do with them all? Heaven help me, literally. My blogger friend, Cindy, has a huge garden and I can't even keep up with a houseplant. I used to have a great garden, bake bread, sew, paint..now I dress like a slob, am overweight, can't keep track of when I had a shower...oh well...No one is in jail, I have almost no debt, not one of the 13 kids is on drugs or drinking, all of them but one go to church every week....Today I took Sergey back to OTP, Andrey is home from boy scouts, Raymond is at work at the pool, Elijah went to spend the night with Cameron and I'm lost without him, the remainder of us will probably watch Out of the Wild on tv and go to bed. We'll get up and do it again tomorrow, whatever IT is.