summer, hard to let it go

My, oh my, how time flies. So much has happened this summer...the boys Philmont trip, the wedding, Sergey graduating from OTP, Ray's wisdom teeth surgery, Alina almost dying from a bee sting, Igor with Rocky Mountain Spotted fever, the birth of my sweet granddaughter with the resulting complications for her and for Cori, Andrey's Eagle project, unwelcome diagnosis on psych evals and now the pig flu..I have never had so much stress to deal with in such a short period of time. I don't like it, I am half a century old and keep thinking that green pastures and rest are just around the corner but it never happens. Jesus is never wrong.."In this world you will have trouble.." I just remember every day that He also said"In my Father's house are many mansions". Mother Theresa, Saint Paul, Joseph, have got to be my role models. Forget the self actualization books. It's more about "He who would gain his life will lose it and he who loses his life will gain it" I am in one of those stretching periods where God is asking me to move on a little further with Him and I want to sit down and grumble. In one of the books in the Chronicles of Narnia, a rather nasty boy is turned into a dragon. He is in a terrible position, wanting to be a boy again and tries to shed his itchy, scaly skin. Aslan, the great lion, offers to do it for him since he can't accomplish it for himself. His great claws gouge and scrape at the scales and it is painful, but at last he is free and is a new and very changed boy. I know that I am in that very process. I really do want this scaly dragonlike me to be gone. I feel very dragonly lately. But I know that He who began a good work in me will finish it.