24 hours of Life is Good

I will not attempt any catching up on this blog. Long past it. Doubtful if any faithful followers are disappointed anyway. With all the chaos of the last 6 months or more time seems to have been in some sort of alternative mode. I am 53 now and have been through some things that i never thought i would, even thinking I was on my way to some serious, underground rest til the trumpet sounds with this heart stuff. Finally am feeling a little better in the last 24 hours, for the first time since March. With that and being surrounded by all of my beautiful grandkids yesterday and today, I am almost ready to put that "Life is Good" sticker that Maria brought me from Bonaroo on the van. Not sure I can bring myself to it. God is good, sometimes life is good but so much of it isn't. The vbs theme from last year at Antioch was "Life is Good, Eternal Life is Better". I would like that bumper sticker. I realize that I have always been this "fixer" wanting to make things better, recycle, repair, adopt, change and I look around now and think at times "what was all this for?" Spend thousands, fly them from Russia, feed 'em organic food, scouts, church, camping and they become thieves and drug addicts(some of them..so far), others struggle with things I can't fix, I exercise, eat healthy and get some virus around my heart that well nigh kills me. I am not quitting, and I love so much about my life and this Earth but it is NOT the way it was meant to be and isn't going to get any better soon no matter how much fixing anyone does. Reminds me of standing by the recycle bins at the landfill while the huge trucks roll by loaded with 100 times the plastic, glass and cardboard that I'm unloading from the back of the s10. Coming to terms with the fact that I do what is right without worrying about the results. Sounds stupid and a lot like a waste of time. That's what the Gospel is to a mind that isn't born again and what the devil gets us to thinking even when we are, that if we don't ultimately fix it, we have wasted our time. God will fix it all, not me, not us. We just do what He asks us to do, feed, love, be good stewards of the stuff we can take care of, get up every day and read His word and do it. It's taking a while for it to sink in, I am such a stubborn old bat.....